Monday, 26 August 2013

The Greatest Love I Know

I have looked in my life and seen the many 'black horses' that have come my way. I think I'm finally ready for my white horse, the fairytale knight in shining armor. I realised something, He's always been there rescuing me at every turn, bringing me out of stuff, and loving me even more when I'm not the best of people. What greater love can I ask for?

He has never disappointed me, albeit the fact that I did the same to Him so many times. He always tells me that I'm beautiful and how much He loves me. I get flowers everyday! Show me a man who is romantic, and I'll show you mine! He knows how to romance me and make me fall in love with Him all over again! That's my white horse right there.

The other day I was just feeling so emotionless and I didnt care about much, but He quickly came and whispered a love song into my ear. I walk around with stars in my eyes and little red hearts floating about me. I have truly never experienced greater love than the one I have with Him.
He is my life, the air that I breathe, the love I've never had, and that much more. I love Him with everything in me.
Life can be really funny at times. The person who meant so much to you last year this time, means absolutely nothing to you this year same time around! Then one has to question, was it real or was it all part of some farce?

My head is still reeling. Once upon a time I respected and held dear. A leader, a friend. It's amazing how you can say one one thing and its heard in a totally different way! The heart indeed can be deceptive.No one can fully know or comprehend its nature.
In the thick of things, keep all I've said to you in confidence as that. But I am thoroughly disappointed and disgruntled that one would throw the baby out with the bath water. Whatever vestige I had of respect was finally torn to shreds In a few sentences, a heartbeat,a few breaths. It takes a lifetime to build trust but only a whisper to destroy it. A wise woman builds her house!

However, I saw something.Never have I seen a persn so sad, so insecure, so tormented by life and hanging On to whatever vestige of hope that they have. Pity. I am looking at a sad person. I suppose they have been like that for years. I've always wondered why there was no warmth inside. Just a person living on a day to day. No excitement, no spark, just automated.
Just a sad little girl desperate for rescuing. No one can rescue her. Just her Maker. A lifetime of misery projected onto others.

It's sad, pitiful.That surely cannot be life. To live a life where people tolerate you for the sake of the one closest to you....
Never have I seen any one person carry the weight of the world upon their shoulders in that way. A ticking time bomb ready for detonation..

Time to rest and feel the gentle breeze, enjoy life. It is beautiful after all